Past

Standing Still

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August 1st, 2023

It’s been seven months since I last saw you
I play that evening on repeat
And the things I once ignored about you
I see as red flags in new guys I meet
It’s been five months since we had plans
When you chose to ghost
You had nothing you could offer me
But I wanted you the most
I haven’t heard a word from you
You gave me no explanation
I’ve acclimated to this pit in my stomach
While you live in vindication
I guess that’s what happens when you meet online
I can’t believe it’s already been a year
You made me feel things I wasn’t ready for
I don’t know why I’m still here

Miles Between

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May 22nd, 2023

I’m trying not to love you
As you’re telling me I’m worth it
And I’m holding in all my tears
Because everything feels perfect
Telling me this is the bare minimum
When it’s more than I’ve ever received
Feeling like a fairy tale
After how often I’ve been deceived
But I’m scared to get attached
To find out this is only a fantasy
And my past that left me guarded
Is scared that this could be a reality
It’s only been a month
But we talk everyday
And while you’re on the road
I hope you drive my way
Because I can’t wait to feel
My hand inside of yours
Tangled in your arms
A life behind closed doors
I want to spend all day talking in bed
I want your arms to cover me like a blanket
I want you to teach me to love myself
But I haven’t even met you yet

“I don’t want to deal with this 🫠”

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January 29th, 2023

If your intentions were to f*ck with my head
It seems like you’ve succeeded
Asking for reconciliation with me
Only for the past to be repeated
You’re leaving messages unread
Or not doing what you said you would
And I’m losing sleep at night
Hoping that I misunderstood
I told you that I was in bad mental health
And you showed your lack of concern
I didn’t want you to be another lesson
But maybe this time I’ll learn