Like A Moth To A Flame

March 21st, 2025

For six months I practiced patience
Not trying to rush a connection
Then things never moved forward
Now I’m stuck in reflection
What did you even want
Were you just playing a game
As I search for any answers
You bury all of your pain
But I know you’ll think of me one day
When you see 11:11 on the clock
Maybe driving past a bowling alley
Or downtown near my old block
When you’re on our favorite game
And you see someone playing Kayle
Or another person named Grimm
And it’ll hit you like hell
I hope you can’t hear GNF now
Without thinking about me
“You don’t know what you have ’til it’s gone”
Is going to sink in eventually
Knowing that you didn’t want to try
And never told me what you wanted
Though I’m empty just the same 
You’ll be the one who’s haunted

True Love

January 2nd, 2025

I grew up watching Cinderella
And Beauty & The Beast
Raised to believe
That love comes so easy
But the love that I’ve chased
Was always one sided
I attract broken people
I just can’t fight it
Because hurt people hurt people
And I’ve been on both sides
But my energy attracts
What I say I don’t like
When I meet what I want
The feelings aren’t there
I’ve learned to fall in love
With pain and despair
I pursue the wrong people
I love unrequited
Knowing the disrespect
Was something I abided
Playing the long game
Hoping someone will cave
Is how I’ll end up alone
At the end of the day
But that’s all I’ve ever known
Self abandoning and limerence
What I wouldn’t give
To experience romance
Even fairy tales stem
From something once grim
True love is a fantasy
That I’ll never be in