September 27th, 2019
I can’t let this go
So I drive where it’s far
While my heart is beating louder
Than the rain on my car
The music diverts my thoughts
So I play it on loud
Because speaking my truth
Was never allowed
My hands start to tremble
But I hold my grip
I will fight for what’s right
And not let this slip
I give and I give
But it’s my turn to take
So no matter what happens
I’m not going to brake
August 17th, 2009
Started out just like a song
I thought we both would sing along
Happily ever after – just like a movie
Feeling good while the beat flows through me
I didn’t want there to be an end
I didn’t want you to be less than a friend
Sat up at night just thinking things through
I was so in love with you
[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind
You were my favorite song on repeat
Fell in love with the words and beat
The song ended and so did we
At first, it was too hard to see
[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind
I used to think about you at night
Scared that things wouldn’t turn out right
Scared that you wouldn’t sing along
And you f***** up cause you were wrong
Sometimes I wish I had never met you
But I think it was important to
You taught me lessons that I needed to know
So I am glad that you let go
[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind
Note: I am very aware that I’m not a singer, and I mess up a lot in my video. However, I used to be so eager to post things I just wrote that I would upload them as is. I was brave, and I’m not ashamed of that!
No, unfortunately, this is not a new poem. I have been struggling with writer’s block most of this year, but I haven’t given up on my passion! I once took a few years off from regularly writing, and I don’t intend to do that again. The year is passing so quickly, so I thought I would share an update with my now 64 followers! Thank you all, for all of your support! In the meantime, I have been trying to focus on new experiences and other passions to inspire myself.
First, I started the year with the decision to donate my hair!
I got to see my most listened to artist of 2018 in concert, Chelsea Cutler. I also saw myself in her Snapchat story afterward (points to you if you find me)!
After obsessing over the soundtrack, specifically, Burn, I saw Hamilton!
I did some volunteer work, and helped install a bench at a new park!
Lastly, I got to meet up with some friends from out of town for my birthday!
As I’ve previously mentioned, I also turn to music for inspiration. These have been my top favorite songs of this year:
Lui Peng – Just Go
Flume – Friends
Terror Jr – Terrified
Cole Messey – Not Over
Overall, my year has been going well! I hope to start producing some new content – so I don’t overwhelm you all with my old poetry drenched in teen angst! Stay tuned!
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