Moving

That Much

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December 30th, 2009

I get a little bit crazy
But nothing out of control
My minds a little bit spacy
When I’m out on my own
And I’m a little bit stupid
And I’m falling behind
And I’m a little bit complicated
Why can’t I just push rewind

[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much

[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you

And I’m a little lost
Never been over here
And I’m a little dizzy
Trying to get over this fear
And I lost my help
Because they let me go
And the more I ask
The more I hear no

[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much

[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you

And I find my way out
But realize I’m wrong
And I’m always confused
Have I been all along
And I thought I knew
Exactly who I was before
But moving on
I didn’t anymore

[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you

[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much

Right Back At The Beginning

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November 29th, 2009

I miss the security of knowing when to be let down
that’s the only thing I could ever count on you to do
and I thought I lost that
I thought I overcame that feeling
but moving on
means getting let down
over and over again
maybe it’s what I deserved
maybe the past caught up with me
maybe what’s meant to be will be
and this is it
nothing more
this is all I have to be looking for
disappointment seeks its way to me
there’s no way to leave
this is it
this is what I live for
I’m sick of being a waste of time
I’m sick of having nothing else to find
I’m sick of mixed emotions
I’m sick of thinking of devotion
I’m sick of winding up where I was at the start
I’m sick of these feelings tearing me apart
I’m so tired of not knowing what to do
and ending up crawling towards something new
but in the end, it never works out
and from the start, I’d always have my doubts
and the end always comes
so unplanned
and it always ends that way
this is it
nothing new
I was nothing special to you
years ago it was all the same
I’m sick of being played, game after game
but if that’s life, why am I still living
I’m sick of ending up at the start
right back to the beginning

Falling Over The Past

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August 16th, 2009

Cold hands
Small smile
Keep me around
And I’ll stay awhile
Take your time
I won’t take mine
I’m not waiting for you
To make up your mind
Be my friend
And I’ll be yours
But I’m not strong
I can’t be your cure
You’ve been hurt
I’ve been hurt too
So I’m not staying
To get hurt by you
Something so new
Something so bright
But if you wait too long
Time will turn out the light
And my sad eyes
Get carried away
I can’t make up my mind
With someone new every day
Moving on from the past
Just took way too long
And every step I took
Felt out of place and wrong
My feet dragged so heavily
But time has passed since then
I can now take off the weight
I can walk fine again
The past left so fast
It was too hard to breathe
Knowing someone just left you
That you thought wouldn’t leave
And searching for that feeling
That you could only find there
Takes a bit of time
And letting your heart tear
You have to open up
You have to let yourself be free
And I’m trying the best I can
Looking for something new in me
Then something happened
You made me feel again
But when I first met you
I never felt you’d be more than a friend
I kissed you in my dream
And it just felt so real
And when I woke up
I wanted to know how it feels
And I’ve lost myself
Anticipation has me staring at walls
And I wonder once I space back in
If this is this how it feels to fall?