The Vertigo of Letting Go

April 16th, 2024

There’s guys I gave four chances to
Won’t let there be a fifth
I fell for Mr. Colbert
But first I fell for Mr. Smith

Both of these guys
Had one too many chances
Won’t let there be another
Under any circumstances

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

They exist on paper
And in the corners of my mind
I spend more often than not
Trying to convince myself I’m fine

I miss who I was before
I met either of them in person
Never knew someone so little
For that I am most certain

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

They probably don’t remember it
All the details that I dwell
And missing them lacks logic
Because they put me through hell

And I need to give credit
Where credit is due
Megan Cromwell wrote the song
That inspired me to write this for both of you

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

And maybe I’m thankful
I never had to pick between either
They showed up at different times
And I ended up with neither

They cut the ties
They let me down
When I needed them most
They were nowhere to be found

[Chorus 2:]
And I saw them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
But we’ll never reunite
Because it’s time I let them go
A part of me was scared
And it still gives me vertigo 
But I’m still moving on
Filling the parts that they left hollow

Bye

November 21st, 2003

Fine, leave me faster than a shooting star flies
That’s how it went – yeah
If that’s how it’s going to be
Here’s what I have to say

[Chorus:]
Go where you want to go
Be where you want to be
See what you want to see 
Then live what you want to live

Bye
That’s the last one you’ll ever hear
Yeah
Adios, see you later señor – not

I said bye
Gotta go
See you later – not
Bye

[Chorus:]
Go where you want to go
Be where you want to be
See what you want to see
Then live what you want to live

Everything But Me

March 20th, 2022

You’ve tried to keep me trapped
In an image that I’m not
Picture perfect in a frame
But I think that you forgot

I keep myself busy
Just to keep myself numb
And now I’m not sure
Who it is I have become

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went

And who I was before
Doesn’t matter anymore
There’s more in life to see
I can’t continue to ignore

You drag me down with you
Because you’d love to see me fail
But I can get back up again
And in the end I will prevail

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
I’ve been there time and time again

And you can’t keep me here
I think it’s time for me to leave
Take everything but me
From a life that I won’t grieve

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went