June 9th, 2011
I can’t help but wonder how this happened so fast
But I’m so scared that again it won’t last
I’ve been given another chance and I won’t let it go
I’ve been longing for this more than anyone knows
I write you away, but you won’t leave my mind
The idea of you just makes me feel blind
I wanted you from the very start
And I watched us slowly fall apart
If things fall into place, that will be the rest
Now all I can do is hope for the best
February 24th, 2025
I have to respect it
You set a boundary
Said you didn’t want to hear
The things that upset me
I thought we were friends
Maybe I was wrong
I try to find my people
But I can only long
I’m alone in this world
I don’t have anyone close
It makes me feel like a burden
When I try to disclose
There’s no one to talk to about my day
What stressed me out or made me smile
And I liked being alone
But that only lasted for a while
Sometimes I need someone
Who I can talk to
Longing for connection
But I let the wrong people through
January 10th, 2025
Trust is something
I don’t know how to give
Because I moved on
But I still can’t forgive
The person who should’ve been there
Left me alone and broken
Pushed me into a shell of myself
Until I was no longer outspoken
Crippled me into a “tolerable” version
Where I was living a lie
And after all of these years
I still find it hard to cry
I should have been happy
Because I was married
But they left me with these feelings
That I can’t keep buried
How can I trust someone new
When my spouse broke my hope
I longed for a connection
They didn’t want to know
When I needed them most
They were not there
I reached out for help
And they didn’t even care
I was over being neglected
I was their last priority
Now how am I supposed to trust
That anyone can show up for me
After three years I’m still healing
Because I carry this burden
From the decade that I spent
Trying to love an Urban
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