August 11th, 2025
Not sure what you got out of this
When you never wanted more
But you still wanted to talk to me
And not close the door
I have to fill in the blanks
Bridge communication you wouldn’t say
Trying to figure out what happened
When you asked me out for Valentine’s Day
Your eyes wouldn’t meet mine
Across the table at Leatherby’s
Maybe you were just lonely
I guess I’ll never know why you invited me
April 14th, 2025
This is cliche but it didn’t kill me
I’m just done with this silence
I’m over your inconsistency
Knowing I’ll never find reliance
As the feelings come in waves
I accept that I am broken
And my words won’t change anything
So I leave them unspoken
No one can fix me except myself
But that’s a job that I keep failing
Because I gave you power over me
And then you kept bailing
Maybe it’s the loneliness
That’s making me feel haunted
I just wish it wasn’t you
Who made me feel unwanted
Even though I want to tell you this
It’s easier to not bring it up again
Because I never asked for anything
And you couldn’t even be a friend
It didn’t even need to be a horizon
You could’ve brought me anything
Now this is the third year in a row
Where you won’t know me in spring
You decided to let me drown
But I know what people say
That it needs to rain in April
To enjoy the flowers in May
August 25th, 2024
I’m getting things together
I’m cleaning up my life
I’ve given up the idea
Of again being a wife
I’m living life solo
I think that’s meant for me
Because only by myself
Can I shape my perfect reality
At least that’s the perception
That I’ve carried all year
But now I’m feeling lonely
Not sure what reality is real
I got stuck at a fork
So I walk in the middle
I’m not sure how to navigate this
It’s like an unsolvable riddle
Will I continue the path
Of living life on my own
Or will the day come
That I won’t be alone
Doll Poetry 