My Barricade

March 16th, 2024

Sitting in a coffee shop
I’m going through life’s trials
Forcing myself to write something
After running 6.2 miles
My life is a series
Of events and activities
Then working all week
And trying to maintain productivity
Two years on my own
I’ve been going through the motions
And even before that
I started bottling my emotions
I’ve been working so hard
I need to prove it to myself
I can find happiness
Without needing someone else
I don’t think anyone understands
Why I feel so lonely
Because I surround myself with people
But none of them know me
I don’t know how to drop my walls
I think I lack the wisdom
And until I start letting people in
I need to be my own support system

Before I Die

March 9th, 2024

Trying to figure out my life
I feel caught in the middle
But in the universe
I feel so little
I’m lost in the flow
Life is a vicious cycle
At the end of it all
There’s no chance of survival
We all face our own problems
Mine feel so small
But when they consume me
I’m feeling it all
I know that in the end
We’re all going to die
I just hope I find happiness
Before I have to say goodbye