Recalculating

May 27th, 2024

Six days left
Of being thirty-one
I don’t really know
Who I’ve become
Am I losing my focus
Have I lost my way
Who I was before
Isn’t who I am today
Reflecting on the past
But I know I can’t live there
Leaving behind an old life
And people who never cared
I might not be where I want
But I’m finding direction
From every wrong turn
A new route from rejection
As confusing as it feels
That’s the beauty of growing
Finding myself
After all the not knowing

The Fear of Hope

May 12th, 2024

Life is flying by
I don’t know where I’m going
Wrapped up in a fantasy
And lost in the unknowing
I’m chasing a feeling
That I may never find
Someone to love
Who may never be mine
But I’m optimistic
Even when no one has stayed
And I’ll let them know me
Even when I’m afraid

Preposterous

April 1st, 2024

I confess, I’m a mess
Most days I don’t even get dressed
The gears turning in my head
Filling with things unsaid
I took a break from sharing thoughts
I didn’t want to get caught
Unbeknownst to what occurred
I broke down like once before
Holding my breath
This is life or death