January 7th, 2011
I watched you leave
I asked you to turn off the light
I sat in the dark
Alone
I felt this before
Too many times
In the dark
I watched you go
I knew you wouldn’t be back
I knew it wouldn’t be okay
I wanted to believe
And I got pushed away
Alone
Too many times
I sat in the dark
I watched you leave
March 20th, 2022
You’ve tried to keep me trapped
In an image that I’m not
Picture perfect in a frame
But I think that you forgot
I keep myself busy
Just to keep myself numb
And now I’m not sure
Who it is I have become
[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went
And who I was before
Doesn’t matter anymore
There’s more in life to see
I can’t continue to ignore
You drag me down with you
Because you’d love to see me fail
But I can get back up again
And in the end I will prevail
[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
I’ve been there time and time again
And you can’t keep me here
I think it’s time for me to leave
Take everything but me
From a life that I won’t grieve
[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went
January 30th, 2022
Secrets pile up
Like bottles in the trash
Gaslighting my suspicion
And it hits me like whiplash
Years have gone by
It hasn’t gotten better
But things will never change
After a decade has weathered
Invading my privacy
Because you wanted the truth
Instead of speaking like adults
You chose to sleuth
Complicated is an understatement
You violated my trust
I just want to take off
And hide in my wanderlust
Doll Poetry 