Crave

November 28th, 2009

It was the intensity of your curious eyes
burning into mine
with such confusion
that held me in awe for so long.

I had no grip on what I was doing
where I was going
and what the ending outcome would be
but I loved every moment of it.

Secret words we’d exchange
never fell from my lips
I only traced the words
with my fingertips –

Because they were mine
my secret
mine to hold
mine.

No actions followed our words
no more confused stares
we faded from that
right into awkward smiles
right into no longer existing.

No longer does any word
I say to you
mean anything
and your words are still secrets
but no longer my favorites.

You no longer light up my phone
and light up my face
with a smile
from the secrets we created
in a dizzy illusion
of what would seem to be a crush –

But we failed
and in a whirl of fading stars
I fell back to the ground.

I found my way up again
only to find
your words have been given away
but that’s okay.

Your words were more than enough
to fill my appetite
and no longer are they
what I crave.

(Originally Posted Here)

Answer Me

April 27th, 2009

It started off like a math problem
Me plus you and the answer is unknown
Time went by and the equation was solved
And it’s going to end alone

It wasn’t me who solved it though
I wasn’t strong enough
It’s just the way it has to be
And I’m just not that tough

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
And I don’t want to end tonight

Time keeps moving faster
And I’m spinning in confusion
All this time it was only me
Everything was an illusion

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
And I don’t want to end tonight

I’ve never been so confused
I just don’t know what to do
I’ve never felt so afraid
I don’t want to lose you

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
I just don’t want to end tonight

Fiction

July 1st, 2019

The words don’t leave my pencil
You must be satisfied
Because I bottled up my feelings
And I buried them alive
I don’t want any pity
There must be some confusion
I am more than my own story
And your fictitious disillusion
You pretend that you know me
When all you know is your perception
So I gave myself a new identity
And stepped away from your rejection
But you send me right back to that place
Like I’m a scared little kid
Because you still hold that power
When you refuse to admit what you did
So you can write your own narrative
And you can convince yourself it’s true
But no matter how you conclude this
I will never forgive you