I’m Not Yours

July 23rd, 2009

You make me hear the colors
Make me feel the sounds
Make my heart beat faster
Make me scream out loud

There’s something in this feeling
Something I can’t hide
Something in you
Something’s getting to me now

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And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

There’s something so relaxing
Something makes me feel alive
And as attention’s missing
I go off on my own

There’s something about the pain
Something about what you are
Something about the situation
I’m on the edge of defeat

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

And here we go again
I’m being pushed away
I can’t take this game
Just stop playing me

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

So, I’m not yours…

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Alive

July 13th, 2009

Fake as plastic
Real as pain
These unhappy thoughts
Run through my veins
They spread around
They make me feel
It hurts to know
It’s just too real
And there you are
Acting like I’m not here
You said you’d be the one who gets hurt
But that was me, my dear
I’m screaming so loud
Please just let me go
It’ll be a secret
No one needs to know
Closer to the edge
Heart beating stronger
And all that I thought was real
Couldn’t be wronger
Fake as the lies you spread
Real as the pain you put me through
Sinking in like quicksand
So slowly with nothing I can do
Story of my life
I can’t believe you lied
So slowly you killed me
But I’ve never felt more alive than when I died

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Liar

February 26th, 2009

Just because you kissed me
When you had a girlfriend
You brought me into your world of lies

And just because our lips touched
It doesn’t mean that much
But I lied

And just because you hid your relationship
And I knew but I pretended to not
Does that mean I lied

And just because
You told me you loved me
It doesn’t mean it’s true
Because I know you lied

And just because
You kissed my sibling
When we got together
But you were both drunk
You say it didn’t count
But that’s a lie

And just because
You don’t talk to me now
Every new relationship you have
Because I still love you
Does that mean our friendship is a lie

And just because this is all you do
The lies are deep
They hurt so deep
Because I’m in your life
Am I a liar?

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