Pedestal

June 27th, 2008

You’ got me standing on a pedestal
My legs are tired
But you’re not letting me down
I want to veer
But I don’t want to fall off
I need help down
I’m not perfect
And I won’t ever be
I’m so imperfect
Don’t know why you can’t see
You’ve got me up on a pedestal
I don’t know why
It seems the harder that I try
You only see
Perfection shining out of me
But I’m not
I’ll never be
Why can’t you see
You’ve got me up on a pedestal
My legs are tired
But you’re not letting me down
Don’t let me fall

2008 6

That’s Not All

March 14th, 2006

You never answer when I call
You don’t catch me when I fall
You never helped guide me on my way
You just left me and pretended it was okay

Left me standing in the middle of the road
You taught me always to do what I was told
Thanks for trying to help me
You just guided me into insanity

[Chorus:]
Couldn’t you have at least said why
Couldn’t you have at least said goodbye
Couldn’t you have been here when I needed you
Because best friends always help you through

I thought we were best friends
But are we at our end?
You said that you would love me forever
Then you cracked under the pressure

[Chorus:]
Couldn’t you have at least said why
Couldn’t you have at least said goodbye
Couldn’t you have been here when I needed you
Because best friends always help you through

That’s not all, that’s not all
You could at least catch me when I fall
Or helped guide me on my way
But don’t leave me because it’s not okay

2006 (6)

Lightning Thunder ⚡

August 15th, 2005

I feel the lightning running through my veins
I know these thoughts are driving me insane
I can’t help but wish they were all dead
I can’t help but let these thoughts haunt my head

I feel like I’m all broken up inside
I can’t help but misplace all my pride
I can’t help but feel like dying every day
And every single second wastes my time away

[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you

Lightning, thunder, take my pain away
Come on baby make my day
I’m sitting here and wondering why
I can’t help it, I know I’m gonna die

Here I am, all alone
With all my feelings that go unshown
I’m lying here and I’m dying this way
So pull the trigger and take my pain away

[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you

It’s only normal to feel this way
It’s the feeling I’m feeling every day
Drifting away, far at sea
All these feelings are taking over me

[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you

 

2005 (11)