March 2nd, 2024
Do I have anything new to say
I guess that I don’t know
My dream last night
Was hard to let go
Realization in the middle
That things were not real
When it’s what I want
But I need to heal
Did I go along with it
The details are fading
I want to remember
These thoughts are invading
But I know I won’t recover
Until I walk away
Even in my dreams
I can’t let you stay
January 26th, 2010
I know that what I felt was real
But I had to let those feelings heal
I knew that we wouldn’t last
You left me in your past
You brought me out of darker days
I turned away from my bad ways
You brought my smile back
And now the pain is what I lack
And even though you are gone
And I knew you’d be all along
I still wonder about the time
Things were bad until you made them fine
And you’re gone but I still smile
And I’ve been questioning if this was fake for awhile
But I don’t think I can deny
I’m happy now and that’s no lie
I’m not sure how my feelings work
But they don’t doubt you were a jerk
You can’t even apologize
You try to hide the truth with lies
And you just might not understand
And I didn’t at first because none of this I planned
Anything can happen and I know that because of you
The doors of reality you opened me up to
November 9th, 2018
I’m angry
There’s nothing I can do
I’m helpless
I just need to pull through
I’m speechless
But the action took place
I’m oblivious
My reaction is all over my face
I’m unstable
And grasping for closure
I’m a mess
Who can’t find composure
I’m broken
But I know that I will heal
I can’t learn to grow
If I don’t let myself feel