Headway

April 28th, 2024

I’m fighting deadlines
That I know don’t exist
I’m grinding my teeth
And clenching my fist
I forgot how to relax
With everything I feel
I only see red
Nothing feels real
This is the pressure
I put on myself
I know it’s not just me
We all do this to ourselves
I want to start over
I want to let go
But only through pain
Do we learn how to grow

Same Story, Different Characters

March 29th, 2024

How many times can I write about the same thing
When will people start to grow bored
And every time I think I’ve finished the story
I don’t know how to cut the cord
The words spill out of me
So fast that they can’t stop
I’m writing all my feelings
The lowest moments through the top
I use the words I once wrote for something else
And I find a better way to make them fit
Even when they insert perfectly
I always feel like a counterfeit
So many words in my head
Not enough time to get them out
But when I’m sitting with my notebook
It’s drier than a drought
The message was written
There was no invisible ink
Reading between the lines
There’s more there than you think
I’ll keep writing the same things over
Until maybe they’ll make sense
I’m trying to wrap my mind around this
But I got lost in the suspense

Who Is That

November 2003

[Chorus:]
Who is that
Who is that
Who is that girl
Looking back at me

[Chorus:]
Who is that
Who is that
Who is that girl
Looking back at me

I look in the mirror
I see myself
But not the girl
I want to be

Why can’t I just be myself
Why can’t I just say

[Chorus:]
Who is that
Who is that
Who is that girl
Looking back at me

Lying here
Looking in the mirror
At the girl I am today

If I went back to the past
Everything will be a blast
Then I will grow up – and say

[Chorus:]
Who is that
Who is that
Who is that girl
Looking back at me

When will I be myself again