Spiders

May 10th, 2010

I know the truth but I fall false
I’m tangled up in a web of illusion
And in my heart I fear I’ve lied
I’m hoping for a conclusion
I pray to be right
But know that I’m wrong
My fingers have been crossed
And I’ve known all along
These spiders know the truth
And it slips through the cracks
Then I fall to the floor
With the truth that it lacks
All these tears full of lies
And this heart about to burst
I was thinking of myself
When I should’ve put you first
Now the rain’s falling slowly
And I think they think I’m crazy
But I think I’m forgetting
Because this is all getting hazy
When I wake up I’m gone
In an unfamiliar place
And the lies are all around
Written right across my face
And they all left me here
Cause the rain left me showing
The truth was uncovered
And the spiders kept going
They opened my wounds
And left me to die
In a sticky little web
I built from this lie

The First Stage

June 10th, 2021

Another collision
Like the last two years disappeared
Like before I ever met you
But my memories haven’t cleared
I had consciously chosen
Not to write you into my pages
But I can’t keep pretending
If I want to get through these next stages
And I’ve tried to shake this feeling
But for months it hasn’t faded
You left me in your past
Like it was me who made you jaded
Then I dreamed that you said sorry
When I know you’ll never be
So I’ll write you out of my system
And I can set this free

Reflex

November 9th, 2018

I’m angry
There’s nothing I can do
I’m helpless
I just need to pull through
I’m speechless
But the action took place
I’m oblivious
My reaction is all over my face
I’m unstable
And grasping for closure
I’m a mess
Who can’t find composure
I’m broken
But I know that I will heal
I can’t learn to grow
If I don’t let myself feel