Acquainted

May 21st, 2018

Questions spiral through my head
But answers are nowhere to be found
And I grasp on to what I know is real
Because I don’t know what else is around
So what does friendship really mean
Because I know that it’s been defined
But the more effort that I put in
The more I lose my mind
I give out pieces of myself
I’m spreading myself thin
I hand friendship out like a party favor
To have it end quicker than it began
I don’t know how to trust
But I can’t hold myself back
So I tell them how I feel
And they use it as an attack
They call this insanity
As I do it over again
It’s funny when all I wanted
Was just to be a friend

Truth

April 18th, 2018

I don’t know where I stand
I feel so confused
I know I’ve said this before
But I’ve never felt so used
Everyone got what they wanted
They’ve taken everything from me
I don’t know how I feel
I think I’ve been left empty
I gave up pieces of myself
That I didn’t know exist
And from a small group of friends
Another was removed from my list
Did I do this to myself
Have I ruined it all
Am I cutting out more people
The further I step away from Doll
I have a lot to consider
Does it have to be this way
That there’s no one to trust
And this is the price I pay

Asphyxiate

March 21st, 2018

I don’t know what friendship means
If it’s not okay to feel hurt
I don’t know who you are
Or when you turned into this jerk
You put the knife in my back
And you gave it a turn
Then you set my world on fire
And left me there to burn
You know that I’m already sick
And it’s painful to be alive
That I fight these urges every day
Because I don’t want to die
Yet you hand me the rope
And you bring me a chair
Then you leave me alone
Because you never cared