It scares me The thought that once again I’m fooled Because I am so naive And vulnerable Should I trust again The question doesn’t leave my mind I’m feeling so lost I’m feeling less sain My heart has a way Of getting the best of me Does this deserve the best? Do I even have a best? These chemicals are overwhelming I can’t keep a thought I can’t fight my feelings I need this to stop I don’t know what’s right I’m scared of the past I try to keep hope But I just can’t forget Haunting my thoughts And I can’t let it go These feelings are confusing me More than you know Should I give in Should I take a chance My heart is so restless Beating out of my chest
I get a little bit crazy
But nothing out of control
My minds a little bit spacy
When I’m out on my own
And I’m a little bit stupid
And I’m falling behind
And I’m a little bit complicated
Why can’t I just push rewind
[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much
[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you
And I’m a little lost
Never been over here
And I’m a little dizzy
Trying to get over this fear
And I lost my help
Because they let me go
And the more I ask
The more I hear no
[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much
[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you
And I find my way out
But realize I’m wrong
And I’m always confused
Have I been all along
And I thought I knew
Exactly who I was before
But moving on
I didn’t anymore
[Chorus:]
And I don’t know just who I am
Please figure me out
And I don’t know what to do
I’m just always in doubt
And I need some help
Please help me through
And I’ve lost everything
But am I losing you
[Pre Chorus:]
And the piles adding up
But I just can’t take that much
This is the final battle
It’s me versus my mirror
And when she’s looking back at me
She knows it’s her I fear
As I contemplate my defeat
I wish I were more mundane
But I’ve been made into this vixen
And I won’t ever be the same
These thoughts are circling in my head
And I can’t make them stop
They’re spewing like a broken faucet
That never meant to drop
They have me running down the drain
In fragments that can’t be put back together
And just because I started this storm
Doesn’t mean I can control the weather
I’m bubbling inside
I’m bursting into flames
I’ve been engulfed by my emotions
And my need to end these games
So with one swift movement
My mirror has been demolished
I’m over this war
It’s my turn to say mission accomplished
Doll Poetry 