March 15th, 2011
The same place I ignore
For lack of the allure
The knocking on my door
I’ve never felt like that before
The emptiness inside
The only place to hide
Myself where I confide
To know I’d only lied
The pounding in my head
To know what I had said
To trust in what I read
I did to get ahead
Myself and what I lack
Inside of my attack
I’m never coming back
I am my own drawback
December 31st, 2010
I can’t believe it’s over
It still seemed so young
An empty feeling started
To end with a full one
A weakened hug
To find a hand
And lips that aren’t my own
A while before
A lust-filled night
Left nothing at my door
A haunting feeling
That comes and goes
That just can’t be ignored
A ghost awaits
To haunt my thoughts
And tempt me with allure
An empty kiss
A half-filled hug
Left emptiness endured
To find a hand
And open lips
To fill the empty hole
That night of lust
Turned into more
To find another soul
Beauty sparks
But sleepless nights
A flame was never blown
The ghost awaits
And haunts the nights
Of disconnected souls
A loving hug
And lips I found
Create and fill the whole
But in the dark
And in the sparks
Two flames will kill my soul
December 13th, 2010
It doesn’t matter
How many people are around
I feel so empty
Drowned in the sound
I feel so distant
So far away
And no matter how close
I’m too far to stay
It doesn’t matter though
These people aren’t real
And even if they were
They don’t care how I feel
They don’t know how to love
They don’t know how to see
And in this lonely dark world
I’m still nobody
It doesn’t matter
It’s always been this way
The people don’t care
They don’t want to stay
Nobody cares
But I grew up this way
With no one around
There’s no need to run away
The mirror is my company
The mirror is so fake
The mirror is not my friend
The mirror deserves to break
I like contusions
I know that they’re real
I can see the pain
It’s something that can heal
I don’t like attachment
I don’t like to know
If they get too close
I have to let go
It doesn’t matter though
I grew up this way
Always alone
I don’t know how to stay
It doesn’t matter though
Everyone is fake
All alone
The mirror watches me break
Doll Poetry 