I’m Just Too Young

March 14th, 2009

It’s hard to deny
You know the words better than me
Even without reading it
Even though this is my story
I’d call it an accident
Maybe just a mistake
But these emotions I can’t hide
And these feelings I can’t fake
If this meant anything to you
I think you would have let me know
Your actions never mean anything
And your feelings never show
I don’t know who you are
Because I fell for just your lies
I’m stupid for believing you
Just because you looked me in the eyes
And I know I don’t need you
It just feels like it though
And everything I feel for you
Is nothing that you care enough to know
Maybe I’m just too young
Maybe I’ll never understand you at all
But I’m sick of laying down at night
Just wondering if you’re going to call
I tell myself
I need to push through
No matter how hard I try
I’ll never be enough for you

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Persevere

May 22nd, 2019

The seasons are changing
The oceans are raging
The ground is unsteady
These emotions are heavy
The storm in my head
While I lay in my bed
The clock ticks away
Turning night into day
These thoughts are not real
But they’re all that I feel
As I’m stuck in the ocean
I drown in slow motion
Awake or asleep
These thoughts always creep
The trembling that I feel
Makes me think this is real
This illness isn’t me
I’m somewhere in-between
What’s wrong and what’s right
Do I fight or I flight
The darkness inside
Has no place to hide
My mind might be the offender
But I will not surrender

Unified

May 20th, 2019

We all face our own demons
We all hold a different perception
And we all see something distorted
When we catch our own reflection
We all lead different lives
We all have our own struggle
Then we all appear content
Because the emotions we show are subtle
We all pretend we’re not these people
We all feel this indefensible
But if we all can’t accept ourselves
Then we’ll never learn we’re not dispensable

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