April 2nd, 2019
The anxiety won’t stop
It’s only begun
I’m still paying for the things
That I’ve never done
When I had an option
I lost my voice
Because I was damaged
I forfeited the choice
So I’m searching for the answers
And if they were buried
Because I’ve bottled it up
All the guilt that I’ve carried
I’m just trying to find harmony
In all my indecision
When I haven’t yet recovered
From the impact of your collision
January 4th, 2019
I’m a detail oriented person
I schedule all my plans
And the more I think that I’m on track
The further I feel that I am
I drafted a five-year plan
And I’m over half way through
My list is almost complete
Now I don’t know what to do
Five years seemed like a lot
I guess I never thought further
I don’t know what to do
Once my list is all over
What if I don’t finish
What if I get lost on my path
I’m not prepared for these decisions
Or what happens if I get off track
I’ve followed the directions
But navigating is not my expertise
And my GPS signal is lost
Life gives nothing guaranteed
So I’m waiting for the wrench
Or maybe it was already thrown
Only two years time will tell
To resolve my unknown
October 19th, 2018
In a quiet place
I always find
I let my thoughts
Outside my mind
So close
But no one sees
Up on a staircase
Where I can be free
Confined to my thoughts
Is no way to be living
Up on a rooftop
My pencil’s unforgiving
And sitting glass to glass
I found a place to hide
But the reflections see it all
And I still can’t decide
I’m hidden in plain sight
But I don’t want to be found
I’m just searching for the place
My imagination can’t be bound
Doll Poetry 