Days

Scars Heal

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January 26th, 2010

I know that what I felt was real
But I had to let those feelings heal
I knew that we wouldn’t last
You left me in your past
You brought me out of darker days
I turned away from my bad ways
You brought my smile back
And now the pain is what I lack
And even though you are gone
And I knew you’d be all along
I still wonder about the time
Things were bad until you made them fine
And you’re gone but I still smile
And I’ve been questioning if this was fake for awhile
But I don’t think I can deny
I’m happy now and that’s no lie
I’m not sure how my feelings work
But they don’t doubt you were a jerk
You can’t even apologize
You try to hide the truth with lies
And you just might not understand
And I didn’t at first because none of this I planned
Anything can happen and I know that because of you
The doors of reality you opened me up to

My Insecurities

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August 24th, 2023

The people I spend my time with
Don’t care to know me
I spend my days surrounded
But I still feel so lonely
I worry my friends only talk to me
Out of obligation
And the guys I like only see me
Because I’m the only one accepting their invitation
Or maybe it’s my broken mind
I surround myself with strangers
Longing for a connection I’ve never had
But letting someone too close presents danger
I’m raw, I’m real
These feelings only worsen
I’m a chore to the wrong people
And it’s always the wrong person
I need to face my truth
That I buried deep within
I’ll tell you how I feel
After crying from holding it in
Maybe I should run away
Leave while I still have dignity
Since I wonder if you are only in my life
Because I’m in proximity
I do more for people
Than they would ever do for me
And when I face the truth
I’m the reason I’ll never be happy

I Thought You’d Be Different

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August 14th, 2023

Another piece of myself
I’ve freely given away
Who I once believed to be a friend
Has left me in disarray
Moments that came and went
Made me think this could be more
But now I have not heard from you
Since I left your front door
A Friday night I asked you to drinks
But we ended up at your place
I was feeling broken
Then we met face-to-face
You’re the one who kissed me
Then said that we were just friends
And when I asked you about it
You said it won’t happen again
Then five days later
It happened again
Now I haven’t heard from you since
What happened to just friends?
Eight months I’ve known you
But I never acted on my feelings
You crossed the line
And I’m the one reeling