How Much

July 21st, 2017

How much is a life worth
As it suffers in the hands of others
An accident they say
More like careless decisions
That change the course of our lives
Forever
And you’re slapped on the back of the hand
With the guilt of a son growing up without a father
But that’s not enough
Is this a joke
These years won’t cure
The hearts you broke
But what is enough
No amount of time will bring him back
And make us whole
And make things the way
They were before

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R.I.P. Justin Martin 09/23/1991-07/30/2016

Nameless

July 7th, 2017

Do you understand
That all of this is not my fault
Vindication is all that I want
Except that it’s still on my mind
Filling my head
In every place for thoughts
Unexpectedly is how this started
Curiosity sparked an interest
Killing me as it lingered
Implicating me in guilt
Nothing can cure this conscious of mine
I’m going down with every thought
Suspiciously I clear my mind
Pencils and pens create my thoughts
Illustrated with curves that turn to letters
Variety that turns to words
Everyone has a meaning and place
Yet I let them remain nameless

Disorder

June 8th, 2017

I’m trapped in anxiety
Wrapped in it’s allure
I want to be saved
But I don’t need your cure
I’m falling to pieces
My adhesive won’t hold
All my cards are laid out
And you want me to fold
The whole world is spinning
I plant my feet to the ground
I look around for help
But you’re nowhere to be found
Why do you do this to me
You know who I am
But I’ll sit by myself
And take my citalopram