Gravedigger

November 19th, 2021

I don’t know what to do
I leaped into a rabbit hole
I think I’m digging my own grave
But I like having the control
Constantly going with the flow
Wherever life takes me
Then there’s people like you
And I find your life fascinating
You can make your own path
I’m enchanted by the choices
Be cultured and experienced
Instead of hearing the same old voices
I’ve thought this for a while
But this feeling is something new
Do I stay where I feel safe
Or do I take a chance like you?

Spiders

May 10th, 2010

I know the truth but I fall false
I’m tangled up in a web of illusion
And in my heart I fear I’ve lied
I’m hoping for a conclusion
I pray to be right
But know that I’m wrong
My fingers have been crossed
And I’ve known all along
These spiders know the truth
And it slips through the cracks
Then I fall to the floor
With the truth that it lacks
All these tears full of lies
And this heart about to burst
I was thinking of myself
When I should’ve put you first
Now the rain’s falling slowly
And I think they think I’m crazy
But I think I’m forgetting
Because this is all getting hazy
When I wake up I’m gone
In an unfamiliar place
And the lies are all around
Written right across my face
And they all left me here
Cause the rain left me showing
The truth was uncovered
And the spiders kept going
They opened my wounds
And left me to die
In a sticky little web
I built from this lie

Fears

March 24th, 2010

It scares me
The thought that once again I’m fooled
Because I am so naive
And vulnerable
Should I trust again
The question doesn’t leave my mind
I’m feeling so lost
I’m feeling less sain
My heart has a way
Of getting the best of me
Does this deserve the best?
Do I even have a best?
These chemicals are overwhelming
I can’t keep a thought
I can’t fight my feelings
I need this to stop
I don’t know what’s right
I’m scared of the past
I try to keep hope
But I just can’t forget
Haunting my thoughts
And I can’t let it go
These feelings are confusing me
More than you know
Should I give in
Should I take a chance
My heart is so restless
Beating out of my chest