June 9th, 2011
I can’t help but wonder how this happened so fast
But I’m so scared that again it won’t last
I’ve been given another chance and I won’t let it go
I’ve been longing for this more than anyone knows
I write you away, but you won’t leave my mind
The idea of you just makes me feel blind
I wanted you from the very start
And I watched us slowly fall apart
If things fall into place, that will be the rest
Now all I can do is hope for the best
December 17th, 2024
When I’m talking do you listen
You never ask me questions
So I kept it surface level
And I capped your progression
I matched your energy
I played your game
Then you backed away
So I did the same
I have so many words for you
That you will never hear
And even when this hurts me
I still choose to keep you near
I said there wouldn’t be another chance
But this time we’re just friends
And I said I wouldn’t write about you
Then I broke that once again
May 22nd, 2024
I’ve let people close enough
To count the piercings in my ears
Find the scars on my body
But none of it was real
I’m tired of letting someone in proximity
To see the bioluminescence in my eyes
Then they watch it fade out
When another part of me dies
I know I’m the prize
But they can’t commit
They got their chance
And I watched them blow it
Doll Poetry 