February 6th, 2025
I wanted to write
I wanted to set goals
But my mind betrays me
More than anyone knows
I wanted resolutions
I wanted a good year
But my nervous system’s broken
And everything is unclear
Betray
The Deceiver
March 6th, 2024
I was starting to hate myself
Feeling like you made me a paramour
At one time I thought that I knew you
But you left the truth behind locked doors
I don’t understand how you can’t stomach coffee
But you can stomach cheating on your girlfriend
Or how you failed to mention her for over a year
Leaving what happened with this bitter end
Was she the girl I saw you with last summer
When you said it was your friend from out of town
How long did you premeditate cheating
Did you hope I’d eventually come around
This is the last time that I’ll lower my standards
You’re not attractive enough to treat people this way
Someone needs to put you in your place
How many women did you betray
Now there’s a new girl that you’re dating
And I think you really deserve each other
Because she knew that I was seeing you
When she took you under her covers
Did she know about your girlfriend too
Did she just not care like she didn’t about me
What does she think about the fact
That you still watch all of my stories
I deleted you from social media
But you followed my public profile again
It’s clear that I want nothing to do with you
So why do you still watch them
I now know that I was never the problem
It’s people like you who act without consequence
I hope one day you get your karma
And you’re caught with no defense
Midnight Kiss
January 2nd, 2024
We walked a thin line
Between friendship and flirting
But you’re a friend who broke my heart
When it was already hurting
I asked you out for drinks
And you invited me over instead
I’m telling you about my guy problems
Then I end up in your bed
Your lips were thin against mine
Their presence was unexpected
But they were all-consuming
Until they left me feeling rejected
You called this “an interesting friendship”
I practically ran out your door
Without giving me a chance
You wanted nothing more
Then something changed
We had another chance
I thought this was a shot
At an actual romance
Until the night came
You were flirting with my friend
So I called you out
I thought that was the end
We had a discussion
About how we were feeling
And how to proceed
While I was still reeling
I thought we were on the same page
You said the right things on purpose
But I didn’t hear from you for two weeks
Like you turned this into a circus
Your words don’t mean anything
So I listen to what your actions say
There was no follow-through
So I let this slip away
One day you were into me
Then the next you weren’t
You changed your mind
Of course that hurt
You called me out of the blue
Asked to come over
It’d been a month
But never any closure
I saw you the next day
Leave with another person
You denied what I saw
But these feelings only worsen
Another conversation
You texted me on Christmas Day
You said you wouldn’t string me along
Words you’d soon betray
You were caught on camera
Before your kiss at midnight
The girl that you denied
When I saw you leave that night
A picture’s worth a thousand words
But this video was overexposure
You can’t just fuck me
And then fuck me over
You once had me believing
You also wanted this
And my feelings towards you
I couldn’t resist
Mr. “Tells me what I want to hear”
Instead of how he feels
I don’t know why I ever imagined
That this could be something real
Doll Poetry 