Reflective Reverie

March 5th, 2024

I thought you were lost
I wasn’t sure what to do
But I found you
Still right where I left you
The pain in your eyes
That you don’t want to show
I can see that it’s there
And you won’t let it go
That smile on your face
You wear as a front
Others see it too
But they never confront
The tremble in your voice
Holding back words
Because once they are out
They can’t be unheard
The thoughts in your head
You wear them so loud
And with where you came from
You should feel so proud
The curves of your body
You were taught to hate
But others would kill
For a body that great
The shaking of your hands
The fidgeting you do
The anxiety is present
But you no longer let it consume you
You’ve been made fun of for your legs
Lacking in bronze
But carried by your feet
They’ve ran you half marathons
All these things you hate
Like Bullet For My Valentine said
You are learning to love
And embrace them instead
Taking it day by day
You pour into yourself
They say you must find love within
To be able to love someone else
This is more than a journey
It’s a lifelong mission
But facing your demons
Is your greatest opposition
When you stop carrying everything
When you let go of the tension
When you embrace yourself
You’ll find there’s no more competition
Focus on what you love
Even if you hate the word
Learn to welcome it again
After everything that occurred
The moon tattoo on your shoulder
When you smile with your eyes
The parts of you that you love
And you don’t have to disguise
I can see it now
Everything is so clear
That’s what happens
When I accept what’s in my mirror

The Truth

January 7th, 2011

In your eyes
I don’t know what I see
I want to be happy
I want to believe
In the dark
I don’t know what I feel
Anxiety takes over
But I don’t know if it’s real
In your arms
I don’t know what to say
I want to believe
But it won’t fade away
In the light
I don’t want to go
If the truth tears us apart
I won’t let you know

In & Out

January 7th, 2011

You waited at the door
And I ran to beat the crowd
And I don’t know what you wanted
But we got into my car
Down the street we stopped
Almost too nervous to talk
Much too anxious to eat
I order small
And in the cold we chat
Our eyes awkwardly meet
We’re not so comfortable
And much too shy
We walk down the street
Too nervous to show how we feel
An awkward night of fun
Leads us back at my car
On the way home
It feels so slow
We beat around the bush
I’m feeling so anxious
What I had been waiting for
For so long
You take my neck
And turn my head
Then the night slowly starts to fade