March 21st, 2018
I don’t know what friendship means
If it’s not okay to feel hurt
I don’t know who you are
Or when you turned into this jerk
You put the knife in my back
And you gave it a turn
Then you set my world on fire
And left me there to burn
You know that I’m already sick
And it’s painful to be alive
That I fight these urges every day
Because I don’t want to die
Yet you hand me the rope
And you bring me a chair
Then you leave me alone
Because you never cared
March 13th, 2018
I write to chase my demons away
But they always find a place to stay
A vessel that I never would have thought
Holds the misery that I wished I forgot
The feelings never seem to end
I just find new ways to play pretend
I fake being happy so nobody knows
I put on my smile and put on a show
These things, they always start to pile
All I can do is embrace the denial
These pills are here to help me conceal
I don’t know if anything is real
All I know is I feel so weak
But my mind still finds its way to speak
I just can’t let these feelings go
So I put on my smile and I start the show
Note: I was initially hesitant about posting this poem because I wrote this during one of my hardest struggles with depression. I am so thankful to have poetry as a healthy outlet for expressing my emotions, as I don’t know how else I could make sense of these unbearable feelings. If anyone ever needs someone to talk to about their own struggles, I am always open for discussion!
January 18th, 2018
I’m pissed off, I’m angry
I’m bubbling inside
I can’t be around you
Just please let me hide
I make up excuses
But you don’t deserve one
You think this is a game
Yet it’s not any fun
I’m helpless around you
You have me in scrambles
I don’t know what to say
I do nothing but ramble
I’m falling to pieces
And I see you don’t care
I’m clenching my fists
But I wouldn’t dare
I wrote you a note
But I threw it away
You don’t even respond
When I only said hey
So I cried all my tears
And I’m over it
But if you push me again
I might make the first hit
Doll Poetry 