Fine

May 31st, 2018

What do I feel
I’m not sure I know
I carry this burden
Because I can’t let it go
A glimpse of hope
I watch disappear
I’d say that I’m okay
But I am nowhere near
What are these feelings
I’m not sure
To decode inside my head
Is nothing but a blur
This is an emergency
That no one can solve
And the more I try to change
The issue evolves
All strings are attached
I don’t want to play
If you get too close
I always push away
So what is the problem
They always ask
Maybe they won’t think I’m crazy
If I put on a mask
So I will smile
And say I’m fine
Everyone should know
Never to trust that line

Madness

May 2nd, 2018

The people walk by everyday
It’s just something that they do
So I’ll find a quiet place to hide
That is nothing new
I’ll write out all my feelings
But I don’t know what they are
My life is flying by past me
Because I stepped away too far
I feel content right where I am
But I know this isn’t right
I’m pushing back my instincts
Like my need to fight or flight
I found my peace in chaos
I’m immune to all the pain
And as much as this should hurt me
I have never felt this sane

Written

May 1st, 2018

I realized yesterday
How far that I have come
I’m a quarter through life
But I’ve only just begun
I won’t go dark again
I’m going to get better
I won’t let these silly things
Keep me under the weather
I put my trust in places
That it doesn’t belong
Now I’ll keep it in the binding
Where it should’ve been all along
I’ll spill my heart
Encoded in led
And when it’s over
There will be nothing left unsaid