My Tears

October 2nd, 2004

There’s nothing there to find
My hopes have disappeared
I could feel it
The misty tears running down my cheek
I tried to smile
But I couldn’t

I spun around
Feeling weak and dizzy
I knew I couldn’t change the world
I blinked but I couldn’t see
Everything was so blurry

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

There’s nothing I can do
I can’t make a difference
Smiles are fading
I’m just waiting
I’m a waste of time
My life’s a waste of time

Hope is gone
Fear has come
Knowing I can never be number one
I laugh at myself
My life is fading

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

I’m in a car
Running from my problems
My tears, my tears
Are streaming down my face

Water falling from the sky
The earth is crying too
I feel bad for the world
I’m lying to everyone

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

Alone…

2004 (2)

Asphyxiate

March 21st, 2018

I don’t know what friendship means
If it’s not okay to feel hurt
I don’t know who you are
Or when you turned into this jerk
You put the knife in my back
And you gave it a turn
Then you set my world on fire
And left me there to burn
You know that I’m already sick
And it’s painful to be alive
That I fight these urges every day
Because I don’t want to die
Yet you hand me the rope
And you bring me a chair
Then you leave me alone
Because you never cared

Catch-22

January 25th, 2018

I hear these ideas in my head
And all of them seem wrong
I try to live life day-by-day
To move the time along
I think I need to slow things down
I’m too ahead of my mind
Everything is unresolved
And there’s no solution left to find
I’m asking the same questions
Because the answers always change
I know we think the same things
From the looks we both exchange
Our year is ending soon
An answer was never found
So maybe I’ll leave it alone
And just live in the profound