The Fear of Hope

May 12th, 2024

Life is flying by
I don’t know where I’m going
Wrapped up in a fantasy
And lost in the unknowing
I’m chasing a feeling
That I may never find
Someone to love
Who may never be mine
But I’m optimistic
Even when no one has stayed
And I’ll let them know me
Even when I’m afraid

The Fantasy

May 4th, 2024

Why do I empathize with those who hurt me
Logically explain away their behavior
Downplaying my pain in the situation
Still believing they’re my savior
Is it because I miss being madly in love
Because instead I am just mad
And I’m chasing down a feeling
Of what I’ve never had
When emotions were high
My inhibitions were low
So I loved people
Until they let me go
They didn’t want me
They wanted the fantasy
Still searching for the person
Who wants the real me