August 12th, 2024
I have spent all year
Keeping myself at a distance
Loving at an arm’s length
Embracing resistance
Never putting in more effort
Than someone else
Not letting people know me
Or being my true self
Because the last person
That I let myself close to
Left like I was no one
Memories I can’t redo
Now the people I talk to regularly
Don’t even know my name
I met them through gaming
And they know me as Grimm
July 14th, 2024
So many dreams recently
I wish to forget
I’m living a nightmare
In a life of regrets
After my nap yesterday
I’m using a night light again
Held down in my bed
The bad dreams don’t end
Then I woke up in bed
But I was still asleep
A haunted apartment
With things that creep
Pinching my arm
Yelling at myself to wake
And even while resting
I can’t catch a break
July 7th, 2024
The last few nights
Filled with weird dreams
Replaying in my mind
What do they mean
Living in a new place
With people peaking in
Risking the same issues
How do I win
Being drugged by a stranger
There’s always that risk
But dragged to an alternate reality
Do those even exist?
But then I’m working in retail
And I’m collecting sea shells
No idea where they came from
Are these layers of hell?
Then I’m dragged to an event
With decoys of me
So no one can save me
Trapped in this reality
Then the next night again
A strange occupation
Arresting the last person I loved
Now what was this causation
With a parting kiss
I’m back at an old workplace
Some people shouldn’t be there
But I didn’t solve that case
Someone stood up for me
While one questioned my skills
Behavior like this
Had me running for the hills
And it just kept going
Because I’m in a classroom
My friend’s son is arguing
About someone who transferred too soon
Was this all connected
Was there any meaning
I’m looking for significance
But I was only dreaming
Doll Poetry 