October 30th, 2023
I fall in limerence
A state of delusion
Making up excuses
I embrace your confusion
2023
Solitude
October 12th, 2023
I manage my expectations by expecting the worst
Then I tackle my problems by diving head first
And I keep a shoe ready in hand
So the other won’t drop before the moment I planned
I’ve lived my life in survival mode
Meticulously analyzed every crossroad
And I will freeze before I fight or flight
So I can justify why I am right
So I built my walls without a door
There’s no getting in without a war
I’m stuck in a realm of constant distrust
Because I’ve lost my mind in love and lust
I’ve been hurt time and time again
I live my life playing pretend
I need people but let them go
I’d rather suffer than let it show
An Interesting Friendship
September 1st, 2023
Was that a date?
You offered to pay
Insisted on picking me up
These details I replay
I don’t want to get the wrong idea
Or was that your intention
So was it the right idea
But friends is all you mention
One of the best first dates I’ve had
If that’s even what it was
And when I tripped on the stairs
I only fell for us
Thinking of when you looked at my ring
And proceeded to kiss my hand
Then laughed because it was weird
You had me falling like quicksand
But you won’t hold my gaze
Like you won’t hold my hand
Too soon to know if this is going anywhere
But friendship was all I planned
Doll Poetry 