My Facade

November 22nd, 2023

For the comfort of other people
I downplay my emotions
Will they ever know me
I’m going through the motions
I live behind a facade
Do they see my bluff
They say that less is more
So I starve to be enough
Letting people in is not safe
Though it’s something that I want
But I’ve lived this performance
With memories that haunt
Like a baby blanket
I carry these feelings around
I will never be who I want
If I never let myself be found

Easy

November 14th, 2023

I had my life together
When you asked how I was doing
Why would you do this again
You make my life confusing

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

I think I was happy
For eight months you were a ghost
But I still remember
When I wanted you the most

The history I share with you
Remembering the past
I thought I’d never see you again
The feelings my heart recast

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

Telling me to look at you
Then all you did was smile
A new feeling of intimacy
I hadn’t felt in a while

I thought things were different
This cycle of insanity
But I will never be enough
To share your life of vanity

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

I don’t want to love you
Now is it too late?
I need to address this
Your words hold a weight

Just say something, anything
Tell me to stay
Your silence is deafening
It’s not easy to walk away

[Chorus 2:]
You know what you did
What you put me through
But you don’t respond
How is this easy for you?