How Strange

September 9th, 2019

Strangers at first
That’s where we all start
Until we meet each other
And we don’t know life apart
Disclosing becomes easier
Trust is gaining
And there are fewer things
That I’m refraining
Stories of the past
A time we never knew
Playing years of catch up
There’s so much left to do
But then something happens
We have our first fight
And we can’t conclude
Who’s wrong or right
It’s easier to move on
But that elephant’s still there
With an open wound
That we’ve left unrepaired
And we can pretend
But we can’t forget
And someone who once comforted you
Becomes something you regret
Words can’t make this better
And we can’t pretend
That someone you love
Can’t become a stranger again

Stepping Stones

September 4th, 2019

Innocence of words
Exchanges between two
Always the first step
And that’s how I met you
Initiating

Questioning intentions
Teetering the line
Is this a friendship
Or do you want to be mine
Experimenting

A flame begins to burn
I know this is real
Space disappears
And it’s you that I feel
Intensifying

A relationship builds
Without being planned
Two become one
Hand in hand
Integrating

We could spend days together
But I’d still want more time
Two against the world
Planning for a lifetime
Bonding

We still have our own identities
We bring different things to the table
And that is okay
When the foundation is stable
Differentiating

But in uncharted territory
Things quickly change
And someone you love
Can become someone estranged
Circumscribing

We’re questioning each other
I’m feeling uncertain
When I’ve found there’s a stranger
Living under the curtain
Stagnating

And not talking becomes easier
We can just look away
A love becomes scorned
From our new disarray
Avoiding

Silence becomes deadly
When we can’t even pretend
So as the flame flickers out
We come to an end
Terminating

Note: Inspired by Knapp’s Model of Relational Development

Lucid

August 26th, 2019

It was a dream
But I was awake
Alone with these memories
I couldn’t fake
I looked at you
And in your eyes
I never thought
You’d tell me lies
I wore my innocence
My heart on my sleeve
You wore deception
And I wanted to believe
That I felt safe
Away from danger
I thought I knew you
But you were a stranger
You lit me up
And I felt the fire
Then I got burned
By the greed of desire
And in that night
You made your bed
Laid yourself down
And rested your head
I tried the same
But I couldn’t sleep
My devastation played
Again on repeat
I never knew you
Now I must grieve
A loss that only
I perceived