September 30th, 2019
The words that I said
Dropped to the floor
Vanished quicker than I could say them
Never to be spoken anymore
Swept under the rug
Synonymous with dirt
These memories I hold
Are not supposed to hurt
The past haunts my mind
Searching for the instance
Where you became a story
But in yours I was nonexistent
You’ve erased me from your pages
Without an explanation
And all I asked from you
Was for an honest conversation
September 27th, 2019
I can’t let this go
So I drive where it’s far
While my heart is beating louder
Than the rain on my car
The music diverts my thoughts
So I play it on loud
Because speaking my truth
Was never allowed
My hands start to tremble
But I hold my grip
I will fight for what’s right
And not let this slip
I give and I give
But it’s my turn to take
So no matter what happens
I’m not going to brake
September 23rd, 2019
I want to hate myself
For what I did to me
But I don’t know how
This was something I didn’t foresee
I blame myself
When this wasn’t my fault
But I can’t let go
Even when forgiving is my default
I want to condone myself
For all the blame I take
But I can’t help myself
When others seal my fate
I try to love myself
I try to climb my walls
But I can’t fix myself
When forgiveness is my downfall
Doll Poetry 