I Was Asleep

March 2nd, 2024

Do I have anything new to say
I guess that I don’t know
My dream last night
Was hard to let go
Realization in the middle
That things were not real
When it’s what I want
But I need to heal
Did I go along with it
The details are fading
I want to remember
These thoughts are invading
But I know I won’t recover
Until I walk away
Even in my dreams
I can’t let you stay

I Feel Bad For Maddie

February 23rd, 2024

I once had a friend
But he made it something more
I was okay with that
I had feelings to explore

But he wasn’t who
I had believed him to be
Cause I found out the truth
Now I feel bad for Maddie

[Chorus:]
Maddie, Maddie
He never mentioned her
Maddie, Maddie
Don’t know how this occurred

I don’t know what to think
I thought he was my friend
Who moved on to another girl
I thought that was the end

But he’s a narcissist
I thought the problem was me
Except he had a girlfriend
And I feel bad for Maddie

[Chorus:]
Maddie, Maddie
He never mentioned her
Maddie, Maddie
Don’t know how this occurred

Here we go again
Another guy who lies
But I found out the truth
And now he can’t deny

How many girls were there
I know at one point three
I hope she knows the truth
Cause I feel bad for Maddie

[Chorus:]
Maddie, Maddie
He never mentioned her
Maddie, Maddie
Don’t know how this occurred

Maddie, Maddie
I swear I didn’t know
Maddie, Maddie
I hope you’ve let him go

Clairvoyant

February 19th, 2024

A few months ago I went to a psychic fair
And they knew my connection to two
The guy I’ve known for lifetimes
And the other was someone new
They made it clear
Neither were my soulmate
But both were lessons I needed
While I find my path to fate
Now that they’re both gone
What was I supposed to learn
The guy from many lifetimes
Just constantly returns
But the newer guy was just like the first
So I guess that bears the question
How many more lifetimes
Is he supposed to be my lesson
Because this lifetime sent him to me thrice
His attributes in another person
I fell for the second when I couldn’t have the first
Their similarities are certain
Both born right after Christmas
But 364 days apart
Alike in so many ways
Including the way they hurt my heart
But the second guy is actually the third
Because there was another before
I keep looking for guy number one
Every time he closes the door
They have almost the same name
And live off of the same street
Will I keep looking for him
In every one I meet
Am I doomed in reincarnation
Why does he have a hold on me
What is it I’m not learning?
Why won’t he set me free?
A psychic can only tell you so much
And I don’t know what I believe
I need to cut this connection
But he never stays gone when he leaves
Maybe it’s because the stars aligned the day we met
When Mars and Venus encountered Pluto in Capricorn
And I heard this karmic cycle is ending this week
So I’m letting go for a new connection to be born