May 22nd, 2023

I’m trying not to love you
As you’re telling me I’m worth it
And I’m holding in all my tears
Because everything feels perfect
Telling me this is the bare minimum
When it’s more than I’ve ever received
Feeling like a fairy tale
After how often I’ve been deceived
But I’m scared to get attached
To find out this is only a fantasy
And my past that left me guarded
Is scared that this could be a reality
It’s only been a month
But we talk everyday
And while you’re on the road
I hope you drive my way
Because I can’t wait to feel
My hand inside of yours
Tangled in your arms
A life behind closed doors
I want to spend all day talking in bed
I want your arms to cover me like a blanket
I want you to teach me to love myself
But I haven’t even met you yet